Archive for April, 2006

26
Apr

How am I?

This is a blog update attempt. It’s too hot to do anything, even sleep. I’m just killing time… killing time in a warm place. *wipes sweat off forehead* I don’t know how married women with full time jobs and no household help can physically cope with all the work that needs to be done. It’s been, what, more than a week now and I just get moody when I just cleaned the floor and arranged stuff and it’s dirty and messy again after a few moments. I especially get irritated whenever I arrive home after a 9-and-a-half-hour shift. Boy am I glad I’m not married! Earning money is tough as it is let alone do all the household chores.

I was thinking of not going to work tonight. My father will be home alone tonight since I have work and my brother has a gig in Padi’s Point Marikina. My father is such a scaredy-cat thinking that our apartment is haunted. There are stories but it’s going to be pretty impractical for me to miss a night’s work. Oh well, he just has to sleep it off I guess.

Work’s been pretty ok lately. It’s been bearable and there are even times I am looking forward to go to work, especially when there are chances for me to see *bleep*. Heehee! There were some call updates and some good news money-wise. Am just glad I haven’t resigned yet.

I wish I were here:

photo searched through Google

A couple of days from now and I’ll finally see and feel the beach again. Gawd, am so looking forward to that!

22
Apr

Almost Empty Nest

The house is a little less noisy than before. My mother left for the province a week ago. She’s staying at my grandmother’s house and will be there a couple of weeks more. Earlier this morning, my sister left for Baguio City and is staying there for a few days with her friends. I’m here left with my father and brother.

It’s been a while since I went to Baguio. I was, I think, 14 when I last went there. The last time I went home to the province was when I was 15. That was it. Been stuck to home and school and eventually, work, for the past 10 or so years. My father was disappointed when he learned he couldn’t go to the province with Ma. He knows that the money was just given by my mother’s cousin and if only I could afford it, I would have bought him tickets as well. But then we all have to go through sacrifices and he was left here with us.

That’s probably why I have been feeling tired for the past week. I mean, I have been doing all the house chores after I arrive from work. But it seems I can’t replace my mother when it comes to cleaning the house and the laundry. The house seems not that clean because of the lack of OC-ness (obsessive-compulsiveness) that only my mother can give. Now, my sis won’t be here to help me so I guess I’ll have to do my best. I was just glad I was on leave last Friday. It gave me an extra day to rest.

Been bombarding myself with tragedy and love stories by watching "Tristan + Isolde" (my movie rating here) and "Pride and Prejudice" for the past couple of days. It’s been a while since I had a good cry and the latter almost gave me that. Almost, but not quite.

I bet this week is going to be a dragging one.

P.S.
Fancy seeing Henry Cavill again in "Tristan + Isolde" (played Melot). I wanted him to play Cedric Diggory in "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire". I found him quite fanciable when I saw him in "The Count of Monte Cristo" and yes, he has indeed grown up! Looks a bit like Orlando Bloom so, I know why I find him attractive. Hehe!

19
Apr

day dream

I just woke up after a 3-hour sleep and took a bath. It is really, really hot in here. Felt awful because of my menstrual cramps. Geez. I hate being a girl this time of the month. Within the past 3 hours, I had a weird dream. Remember this post? Let me just say the dream’s subject and the post’s subject are the same. Is this healthy? Is this getting out of hand? Is this normal or am I just think too much? Am I being disloyal? I guess it’s just lack of sleep and I’m going to get some more of it in a while. Hehe!

19
Apr

talk to me

It’s just a little crush. Yes, like that song. I don’t think it’s bad crushing on someone, single or not. At my age, I never thought I’d feel the jitters and palpitations again. Teenage years seem oh so long ago. But I did! It was really weird. I had to stop and almost slap myself for a reality check. I guess it’s true that what keeps the natural high when one is infatuated is knowing deep inside that the person is out of reach. Probably similar to admiring a famous actor or a musician or someone like that. Geez. It’s embarrassing. He might not read this this but just in case:

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
‘Cuz I can see you passing every day and I’m always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
‘Cuz I can’t seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

You know I love the type
You look like you’ve been up all night
And yet somehow still look beautiful
You do it all at the same time
Whenever you walk by
You always look me in the eyes
And in that moment I know
the same thing’s on your mind

It always seems to be that I let the good things pass by
Because I let my fear stop me (but not this time)*

I just wanna talk. Who knows? I’ll (finally) lose interest. Hehehe!

* "Talk To Me" by Keri Noble

19
Apr

Life’s Simple Pleasures

Got tagged by Carnaval.

Name five of life’s simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.

1. payday! Oh happy day!

2. having a real break from work and doing nothing at home.

3. road trip! The farther the place, the better. (Especially if the seat is comfy and there are lots and lots of drinks and junk food!)

4. really, really fast internet connection.

5. early morning walks in the province. I miss the gentle warmth of the early morning sun rays and the smell of fresh dew on grass.

I’m not tagging anyone specific. If you wanna answer this, just post away! :)

19
Apr

quizzes galore!

You Are a Blue Flower
A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance. At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower. And at other times, you are wise like an iris. And more than you wish, you’re a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.


Find your Celestial Choir


What type of Fae are you?

15
Apr

Happy Easter!

"A pencilmaker told the pencils 5 important lessons:

First, everything you do will always leave a mark.
Second, you can always correct the mistakes you make.
Third, what is important is what is inside you.
Fourth, in life you will undergo painful sharpenings which will make you a better pencil.
And most important is, to be the best pencil you can be, you must allow yourself to be held and guided by the Hand that holds."

Happy Easter everyone!

12
Apr

20 Facts

Got tagged by Prof. Sky:

Write 20 random facts about yourself, then tag a number of people equal to the number of minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1. I can live on just ice cream and junk food (I think).

2. I love watching bands performing live.

3. I have always been overweight since as far as I can remember. :(

4. I would like to take up further studies (Masterals) but don’t know what I want to master (yet).

5. I love watching movies!

6. I had my first kiss when I was 22! Hahaha!

7. I am very sentimental.

8. I am also very moody (watch out for the mood swings!)

9. I like reading books.

10. Music inspires me.

11. I am a geek (and proud to be one).

12. I want to have a pet dog.

13. I want a new mobile phone and eventually, my own laptop.

14. I don’t have that many chances to save money since I am the breadwinner.

15. I am very, very, very sensitive.

16. I love to feel loved.

17. Right now, I just want to relax and go to the beach and get a tan.

18. I spend more or less 15 hours online every week!

19. I want to send my secrets to Post Secret

20. I think this meme needs more numbers than just 1 to 20. :)

Now I’m tagging Ava Sharra, Liza, Mark, Rob and Laurice.

11
Apr

bull’s eye

A couple of days ago, somebody mentioned my birth date at work. It was some kind of deadline or due date or something… then this person said that day’s less than 3 months from now.

Then it hit me. Less than three months from now, I’ll turn *gasp* 26. When I was in high school, I told myself the best age to get married and settle down is 27 or 28. I’ll be turning 26 this year and I am far from "ready" to settle down. It’s not that I wanna be young forever. It’s just that I don’t think I am ready for another stage when I’m just starting to learn how the "real" world works.

But then, does anyone ever feel ready to "grow up" and "grow old"?

Note to self:
Must save money. Must pay all credit (at least before I die). :)

09
Apr

A New Perspective

It’s Holy Week already. Since I am not a practicing Catholic, it has been years since I fasted and abstained from meat. I can’t remember the last time I was keen on doing that. Since I started work, Holy Week has been the same for me as any other day. Well, except maybe for a few minor changes such as watching more Christ-related stories on TV and noticing fast food offering these seafood specials instead of the usual meat burgers.

Last night, my siblings and I even watched National Geographic’s world premiere of "The Gospel of Judas". It was very interesting. There are different opinions about it. My father, who came from the seminary before he decided to get out and teach and marry my mother, did not approve of us watching it. He did not also want to read Dan Brown’s "The Da Vinci Code" but he can’t do anything about it. We were just curious. I thought if the faith is there and the faith is strong, there should be no worries about something or someone destroying it. I am not fond of discussing topics about religions. It’s a sensitive topic for most people and I respect most religious beliefs. It’s all a matter of perspective.

Since I am in the topic of perpectives, I also got this from a friend through email. I’m gonna post it here. I hope it touches you as well.

Leaving for work one morning, I noticed that my newspaper hadn’t been delivered yet. Since I always brought it to work, it upset me that I would have to stop at the store and pick one up. I was already running late, but figured I could make it if I hurried. This would really throw a monkey wrench into my morning though and it was putting me in a bad mood.

As I pulled into the parking lot of the store, I noticed a young man in a wheel chair at the far end of the lot who seemed to be struggling. "I’m sure he’s all right", I thought, "or if he’s not, someone else will stop and help him."

Judging by the customers and cars that were passing him by, I guess they were thinking the same thing. I got out, and walked over to see what the trouble was.

"Is there anything I can do?" I asked. It was then that I noticed he wasn’t able to speak, and was still struggling with the chair.

"Is there someone I can call for you? I said. He still couldn’t give me any indication.

I looked down at the chair and noticed that the clamps holding the electronic keyboard and chair controls had apparently loosened causing the equipment to slip down, out of his reach.

"Is this the problem?" I said, as I pulled it back into place, hoping I wasn’t doing more damage than good. I then re-tightened the clamps. His hand jerked over to the keyboard and he hit a single key. An electronic voice told me, "Thank-you." He then found the toggle control that steered the chair, turned and left.

I got back in my car and headed off to work, completely forgetting my newspaper. As I drove, I felt a gratitude come over me like I had never felt before! I was truly blessed to have the physical abilities that allow me to live a normal life.

Here was this young man who relied on a mechanical chair to get him around and a voice simulator to communicate. He probably dreamed about doing all the things that I take for granted every day. I vowed from now on, not to take those things for granted anymore. I would be grateful to God for his blessings that could be gone tomorrow.

It’s funny, fifteen minutes before that happened, I was whining because my morning paper hadn’t arrived on time. I’m glad I was able to help the young man, but more importantly, he was able to help me gain a new perspective on my priorities in life.

Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it.

Have a blessed Holy Week everyone!